Thursday, December 26, 2013

your actions define you.

I will not let myself suffer from another persons actions. I see this happen too often in other peoples lifes. The scenario can be given a million different ways, but I refuse to suffer from someone else. I will make myself happy. The only reason to be sad is when I give myself a reason to be, but my attitude is what will make me sad. I want to be more positive and not let someone else bring me down.

I have been in this place before. I let someone else's emotions decide how I would act around them and they would decide how I felt and they would decide who I should be. I will never let this happen again. If anyone ever makes me unhappy or I feel trapped or feel controlled I will not stick around to see if things get better. I cannot let that happen again. I will still try to fix things, but there is a point in time when you can't fight any longer and you have to let them go.

I will not tolerate being put down and letting someone make me feel like I'm worthless. I cannot and will not put up with someone making me feel this way. I will be strong and care for others like I want to be cared for. Seeing how people treat each other lately has been killing me. There is no respect and no patience. We are all imperfect and that is why we need each other. We need to lift each other up instead of tearing each other down to make us seem bigger and better.

Your actions define who you are. How you treat people determines how others will treat you. Be the better person and be positive. Look for the good in people and don't let anyone make you feel worthless; and don't make anyone feel worthless. Your actions define you.



Sunday, December 22, 2013

what in the heat?

So  I am finally and I'm so happy to be spending time with my family and just being able to relax and be stress free! So far my vacation has consisted of great weather, no sleep, and sickness! whoop whoop! I have strept throat again.. I had to visit the urgent care in my town today to get antibiotics.. so that's a great way to spend Sunday evening right?

It was so strange being in my old ward today because it feels like I never left... which is weird. It was nice to see people though!

Oh and today after I went to urgent care I slept for roughly four hours.. so there is no way in heck I am going to be getting any sleep tonight like forreal. Oh well I figure I can just stay up blogging, writing lyrics, and reading my new book! I cant wait until Christmas! I'm not gonna lie, those presents under the tree are getting me pretty freaking excited!

So I've decided family is one of the most important things to me. They are something that I will hold near and dear to my heart no matter how much they piss me off sometimes. Just being home for a few days I realized how much I missed them. My brother and I didn't get along very well before I left, but now it's better. Now granted when we get mad we throw some rude comments at each other, but it's done with more caution now. I really did miss seeing him everyday. It's just nice to wake up in the morning and see people who I know love me unconditionally. Although, I realized I have to put clothes on to walk around the house. I totally forgot this morning and I wasn't wearing pants after my shower and I ran into my brother in the hallway and I was like oh.. I need to wear pants because boys live here. Whoops... So that was a little embarrassing, but oh well he will get over it.


Friday, December 20, 2013

the adventurous adventures of Emma the airport tard

So at this moment I am sitting in the Slat Lake City airport! I am on my way home!

I am so excited! I have been waiting for this since my mom dropped me off for school! However, I cant post this right now because my mom could possibly read it before I get home and that would not be okay! I am surprising her! I will arrive in D.C. around 9am because my flight leaves at 1am! What is wrong with me! The things I do to make people happy.. *shakes head* So are you ready for my day? here we go!!!

So I woke up this morning and took my Book of Mormon final (which was super easy by the way) Then I went home and cleaned for THREE hours! like whaaaat?! we had white glove and check out.. it took forever. I had to clean the entire fridge. Like I threw away sooooo much food and i had to wash all the shelves and drawers and scrub it inside and out.. it took forever! and it was so gross because there was lots of rotten food and stuff it was super gross. But then after I was done I went to the library to print off my itinerary for my trip that my dad so kindly typed up for me *Thank You DADDY!!!* Then I went home and hung out with someone for a little bit until I had to get on the bus to get to the airport. On the way to the airport I was miserable... It was sooooo hot on the bus and I was like sweating. Luckily Cassie called me so I wasn't bored the whole time only 75% of the ride. Then I got to the airport and I panicked a bit because I was in the wrong terminal to check in so i had to walk to the other one and at this point I was so thirsty and hungry because I hadn't really eaten anything all day. I arrived at 9:30pm and most food places close at 10:00pm so I was rushing. I checked in and started my way through security. I went in the big spinny thing that looks like a spaceship and they detected something so they had me go in again and they saw it again so they had to frisk me and test my hands and then they finally let me get my things. Then i walked to Cafe Rio and they hadn't closed yet so I got food and a drink and I am now the happiest fullest girl in the airport. Not only did I finally get to eat good food, I am seeing my mom in less than 12 hours! I cant wait to be home! PLUS my dad booked me economy comfort seating so that I will have more room for my legs so that I will be more comfortable! *THANK YOU AGAIN DADDEO!* he is seriously the best!



Thursday, December 19, 2013

So i don't think I'll have any fun pictures for this post, but that's okay! I leave tomorrow at 4:30! I have so much to get done today. I have to clean like majorly and pack and still take two finals! I'm am such a stress ball sometimes! Ugh! I am done with classes officially tho! I am so glad! I still need to order books and register for more classes and pay my rent and figure out Christmas gifts for my friends and family! I have soooo much to do its driving me crayyy!

Monday, December 16, 2013

lips like cinnamon







This night was amazing. Sam and I made cinnamon roll waffles. You take the Pilsbury raw cinnamon rolls and you put them in a waffle iron and SQUISH them! it makes a waffle! it I s so delicious! we danced all night that night and just had fun.
This is how I want to live life. I want to dance and not be afraid to have fun. I want to do what I want when I want and feel no hesitation. I used to be afraid of life ,but lately I have come out of my shell. I go around being crazy now and if you don't like it.. have a good life!

Life starts where your comfort zone ends. 

Friday, December 13, 2013

Stu's Birthday Cupcake Domain





So today is Stuart's Birthday! He is 22 so I decided to make him cupcakes!

I hope you have a great birthday Stu! You better come visit us next semester you butt!

Thursday, December 12, 2013

The infamous selfie preview










So Emma likes to take selfies! I thought it might b fun to see the evolution of my selfie on my lap top! So the first picture I am at my house in Virginia with my puppy Linus! He is so cute and I miss him a ton! The second picture I am in my favorite dress and in my bedroom in Virginia as well! Number three I'm in my parents room in Virginia as well and it was one of the first times I had straightened my hair in a loooonng time! Then number four! I am in a North Carolina Hotel room waiting to go to the One Direction concert!!!!! The next one I a in Rexburg, Idaho where I currently reside and I am in my bedroom and I was loving my bun that day! The next one I was in love with my whole look that day! The sweater, my hair, my glasses! I was on love and I am in the Hinckley building on campus! oh Lord the next one, I was in the kitchen home alone listening to Ed Sheeran and felt like I wanted to take a picture with a cup! Then the next one was taken a few days ago I had just finished curling my hair and I was loving it. I am in our bathroom here in Rexburg.. Then the last one. I am rocking the sock bun because today is the second day on my hair and so I didn't want to leave it down. Well I don't know what this post is supposed to be about, but these pictures are fun to look back on and remember old memories and remembering back to the moment I took that picture and how much has changed since a lens caught a moment in time.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Know when to hold 'em


So I've decided life is a lot like poker. It may sound cliché, but it is very true. In life you get dealt a hand randomly. You have no control over the two cards you will get. It is the luck of the draw. Then you have to choose whether or not you want to bet on your cards. There are those people who give up quickly so it makes it seem like the cards you are holding must be better than theirs. So you raise your bet and gamble on your chances. To stay in the game you have to call or fold. When you see someone raise their bet you assume one of two things either your cards are better or worse and at that point you choose whether or not to stay in the game. You never know what the other person has. You are always gambling and basically betting blind. However, then you have to think is the other player bluffing? maybe they just want you to think that your hand is worse than theirs. So the game continues. Then comes the flop, you cant predict what will appear in the flop you just have to hope for the best. So I said this is a lot like life because, well it is. You never know what other people are thinking you never know why someone folded so early and you never know when someone is lying. Then the tricky thing is that person who folded so early might be smarter than you. Why bet in a decent hand when you can wait for a great hand and possibly double your winnings. You gotta know when to hold 'em and know when to fold 'em.

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

All Mixed Up!

So everything is mixed up right now it seems. I really want to go home and see my family, but I feel like once I go home I am not gonna want to come back to this Iceberg.... I cant wait to see y sweet mom and just be able to hug her. I can talk to her basically any time I want to, but just being able to hug her will be the best Christmas gift ever! And to see my dad will be amazing. I really am a daddy's girl so not being able to tease him has been torturous! Then as much as I hate to admit it I will be really happy to see Douglas and his punk butt! And I get to see my Puppy!!!!! I cant wait to see him:) I can talk to any of them, but my little puppers! I think I miss him the most (shhhh don't tell my momma I said that)

This Christmas needs to be perfect because I have a really short break compared to other schools. I will be home for about two weeks. that's it. most schools get off like 3 weeks or more... but hey I will be out in the beginning of April instead of the beginning of May like other schools!

I am so happy our apartment is so "Chirstmasy!" it makes it feel a little more like home! I am glad most of the girls will be here next semester especially Sam because I wouldn't want another roommate at this point. Sam I think is one of my closest friends out here, but we aren't even that close. Sometimes I feel really lonely and I want my old friends back. That's why my best friend Cassie has been on my mind a lot lately. I honestly look up to her and what a good person she is. I wish I was as strong as her sometimes. I can't wait to see her over Christmas break too! We are going on a Panera and Starbucks run the minute I get back in town:)

I cant wait to land in Virginia and see all my friends and family!!!!!







Monday, December 9, 2013

Needed to be said...


I felt like this needed to be said today…

Cassie, I miss you like crazy. So today just sitting down and going through my old blog posts I realized something. You are seriously like my other half. We spent so much time together over this past summer. I loved going to Oakton dances and our long talks on the way there and back. Even we are just driving to your house we seem to get into our feelings. I feel like I can be completely honest with you. I don’t have to hide any part of my life from you. I miss our sleep overs too where we would get a little crazy. Even though we would get lucky if both of our parents said yes and you actually got to stay over! I miss your laughing and all the dumb jokes that we would say. I miss obsessing over one direction with you and getting to see you every morning at seminary even if it was only for 45min and we were half asleep anyway. You are an amazing girl and I love you to pieces. You are so sweet and beautiful. I love that you are a part of my life and I wouldn’t wish it any other way. Our relationship has had its ups and downs, but we are still friends! I love that you deal with me and my “bipolarness” while I’ve been away. Thank you for being the person I can talk to when I feel like I’m completely alone. Everyone out in Rexburg knows about you because I love telling everyone about my amazing best friend Cassie! When my phone rings everyone usually knows it’s either my mom or Cassie! Thank you for being the person I can put my full trust in, thank you for being there for me no matter what! You are amazing Cassie! I can’t wait to see you! I love you to pieces!!

Fall semesters final appearance..

So fall semester is coming to a close. It has had its up and downs, but for the most part it has been a great kick off to my college years! I have made a lot of great friends thus far and I cant wait to make more! Right now I only have about nine school days left. It is seriously crazy... But this week is apparently what people in Rexburg like to call "Shark Week." This is apparently referring to the end of the semester and those who want to have a few NCMOS (non-committal make-out sessions) take full advantage of this so called "Shark Week." I find it quite amusing even though at this point no one is safe from these NKMOS attempts.

Right now I can honestly say I am happy. I think I really like this guy... I know I never post things similar to this on here, but right now I have nothing else to write about... I hope he never reads this, but he is really amazing and he is super cute. There is just something about him that I cant stop thinking about him. Most of my roommates think I'm a broad for investing time in him considering what time in the semester it is... But things are just really confusing with him.. He's confused about his love life and so am I.. I don't know....

New subject!

So my roommate Sam was gonna move to a different apartment in the same complex, but she decided to stay because she decided she liked us too much to leave:) I am so glad she is staying because I really didn't want a new roommate... Ooh also it is cold  freeeeeeeeeeeezing here! It has gotten down to -20 already.. your nose hairs freeze because it is so cold. it is the oddest feeling ever... We are up to our knees in snow and the snow isn't going anywhere anytime soon....

In other news! We snowed in some guys we had been hanging out with. It was at least a foot and a half thick! it was so funny! When we started we were about a fourth of the way up the door when the door opened.... we all ran thinking it was one of the boys, but it just wasn't latched completely shut. we snuck back over and looked inside and three of the boys were asleep in the living room so one of my friends started trying to slam the door shut but it was so loud and since snow had fallen inside it was blocked the way. So someone leaned into the house and scooped the snow out and then they continued to slam the door and none of them woke up from the slamming.. like it was ridiculous!




Saturday, December 7, 2013

~holly jolly christmas~















So the roomies and I had an "Elf" themed party! We made spaghetti and ate it with maple syrup and they four main food groups! Candy, Candy Canes, Candy Corn, and Syrup. We had pop tarts and marshmallows and M & M's and chocolate syrup. It was very fun. The taste of the spaghetti and candy was unforgettable.. never again... ever. We also tried to have all of us wear tacky sweaters, most of us participated.. there were a few bums, but we still had fun! We played Mafia and cards! We also wrestled... a lot. It was an unforgettable night of friends, fun, and Christmas spirit!!!!

xoxo