391

It has been 391 days since I kissed and met nick for the first time... So here are 391 random thoughts! :) 

1. I love nick
2. I want to live in Hawaii
3. I love playing donkey kong
4. I want my life to be like vampire diaries
5. I am grateful for my roommates this semester
6. I miss Jade
7. I miss Panera
8. I love writing
9. I want to be Mrs. Dorsett already
10. I wish I could fly
11. I love batman
12. Big T-shirts make me happy
13. I am not good at math
14. I love kids
15. I miss my mom
16. I love Virginia
17. I love the smell of tide laundry detergent
18. Fuzzy socks make me happy
19. I really don’t like some people
20. I wish my teeth weren’t sensitive
21. I am happy to be moving out of my apartment
22. Clean kitchens are my favorite
23. I wish my teeth were straight
24. I love my wedding dress
25. I stress out easily
26. I hate the feeling of grass
27. I hate dirty kitchens
28. Warm blankets can always cheer me up
29. I love Nick’s laugh
30. My favorite color is blue
31. I miss my dog
32. My dad is my hero
33. I love my older brother
34. I love my younger brother
35. I wish I had a sister
36. I am glad I don’t have a sister
37. I have a lot of inner turmoil
38. I love my hair when its straight
39. I miss my long hair
40. I love my house in Virginia
41. I hate dealing with finances
42. I like the house a little cold
43. I love hot chocolate
44. I wonder how many kids I will have
45. I wish my name was Emmalou
46. I want 3 kids
47. I love crafts
48. I wish I was an artist
49. I want to learn how to draw
50. I have a lot of anxiety
51. I think I am depressed sometimes
52. Les Miserables is my favorite musical
53. Ian Somerhalder is BAE
54. I wish I could sing better
55. Guitar is my passion
56. I cant wait to have sex
57. White boards are weird
58. I miss my best friend
59. I used to be bad
60. I love God
61. I love my Savior
62. I cant wait to be sealed to Nicolas
63. I want to be a photographer
64. I love the name Thora
65. I want a dog
66. I don’t like Rexburg
67. I miss having the 3 musketeers
68. I want to be a millionaire
69. I am lazy
70. I wish I could write a song
71. I love the rain
72. I hate the snow
73. I love the spring time
74. I hate winter
75. I love church
76. I hate singles wards
77. I love the smell of drier sheets
78. I love sweat pants
79. I hate science
80. I love astronomy
81. I am excited to leave Rexburg
82. I love Nicolas with all my heart
83. I love nicks beard
84. I wish I was 10 pounds lighter
85. I wish I had more motivation
86. I want my hair to be more red
87. I get cold really easily
88. I am kind of a brat sometimes
89. I wish my mom was here
90. I love my legs
91. I hate my tummy
92. I wish I had a belly button ring
93. I have always wanted a tattoo
94. I love writing in cursive
95. I don’t read the instructions
96. I hate packing
97. I wish I was low maintenance
98. I am scared of growing up
99. I hate shaving my legs
100. I am very self-conscious
101. I have a very guilty conscious
102. I love my heating blanket
103. Fuzzy blankets are amazing
104. I love minty face wash
105. I hate zits
106. I love conditioner
107. Loofas make life amazing
108. Bubble baths soothe the soul
109. I am scared of getting a massage
110. I love who I am right now
111. I love who I am becoming
112. I love my phone
113. I love taking pictures
114. I love my fiancé
115. I love/hate  scary movies
116. I love fluffy carpet
117. I need him in my life
118. I love being tall
119. I love high heels
120. I wish I was two inches shorter
121. I love Taylor swift
122. I want to go to a concert
123. This is taking way too long…
124. I love driving mini vans
125. I act strong, but I’m not
126. I love my guitar
127. I love taking notes
128. I want to be a mom
129. I hate birth control
130. I don’t fully understand condoms…
131. ^ I want to know what they feel like
132. I am a nightmare dressed like a day dream
133. I am kind of crazy
134. I wish I could come clean about everything
135. I love freshly painted nails
136. I hate waiting for nails to dry
137. Pink lemonade is amazing
138. I have an obsession with taco bell
139. Baja Blast is amazing
140. I hate thinking about the past
141. I wish I could forget things more easily
142. I forgive him very fast
143. I hate living with girls
144. I am so excited to be getting married
145. Weddings are crazy
146. I am excited to meet his family
147. I wish I was better at school
148. I am very awkward
149. I wish I still danced
150. I really enjoy roller skating
151. Nick and Emma vs. The World
152. Dogs are my favorite
153. I don’t like cats
154. I don’t mind kittens
155. I am allergic to bunnies
156. I am allergic to cats
157. I want to be successful
158. I love curling my hair
159. When I look pretty I feel more confident
160. I hate working at McDonalds
161. I won’t go back to McDonalds
162. I am so happy I have Nick in my life
163. I don’t regret anything with him
164. I know God loves me
165. Ed Sheeran’s voice is amazing
166. Love hurts
167. Pictures make life better
168. I wish life was more simple
169. I wish I was more flexible
170. He makes me feel alive
171. I wish I played the guitar more
172. I have only kissed four boys
173. I have only had three boyfriends
174. I dated my first boyfriend for 9 months
175. I love the holidays
176. I AM GETTING MARRIED!
177. I am lucky to have great parents
178. I am sick of the cold
179. I hope my kids will love life
180. I want to raise my kids right
181. I am happy that Nick will be their father
182. I love my wedding veil
183. I hate the dark sometimes
184. I can only sleep in complete darkness
185. I can only sleep in complete silence
186. I am going to miss the friends I made this semester
187. I wish I could rap
188. Nick is my best friend
189. Nick is the only person I am 100% honest with
190. I hate Iphones
191. I hate Apple…
192. I love death cab for cutie
193. I used to be obsessed with coheed and cambria
194. I hate death
195. I hate thinking about my future
196. I love messy buns
197. I love hair products
198. I wish my hair was longer
199. I miss the beach
200. OBX is my favorite place to relax
201. Disney is life!
202. I am going to Disney on my honeymoon
203. I have the vampire diaries necklace
204. I need more socks
205. I hope it doesn’t snow very much in VA this winter
206. I wish I knew how to finger pick on the guitar
207. I hate little red lights in the dark
208. I am almost finished packing
209. I hate the feeling of cotton pads
210. Nail polish remover gives me the chills
211. I hate dry skin
212. I love my wedding ring
213. Rode gold is my favorite
214. I love the ring I got for nick
215. I hate my toes
216. I hate getting pedicures
217. My younger brother is awesome at skateboarding
218. I love bushing my hair
219. I wish my hair was naturally straight
220. I lose so much hair every day
221. I love vacuuming carpets
222. I love the smell of lemon cleaning products roller coaster are awesome
223. I love wood floors
224. I love ice cream
225. ^ but I am lactose intolerant
226. I love frozen yogurt
227. Ice skating is awesome
228. I wish I could do ballet
229. I want to do better in school
230. I am done with school for 9 months
231. ^ that makes me really happy
232. I am jealous of Nick’s guitar skills
233. I love the Book of Mormon
234. I am a daughter of God
235. Nick and I have something beautiful between us
236. I love to sleep
237. Like I LOVE to sleep!
238. I can sleep for 10 hours a night and be perfectly content
239. I get sick if I don’t sleep
240. I am excited to meet his siblings
241. I am excited to go to California
242. I haven’t been to California besides Disney Land
243. I like the taste of envelope glue
244. I love writing in different fonts
245. I hate cleaning other peoples messes
246. Food in the sink grosses me out
247. I go to bed early for a college student
248. I can listen to the same song over and over
249. I love tan walls
250. I love decorating houses/ rooms
251. I wish I felt the spirit more often
252. I wish I got angry less
253. I want to be more patient
254. My mom is freaking amazing
255. I love Instagram
256. I love Facebook
257. I hate twitter
258. Snapchat is amazing
259. I love bonfires
260. I love the smell of clothes after you have been around a fire
261. I love the sand dunes
262. Smores are amazing!
263. Chocolate can cure any sadness
264. I am scared to have kids
265. I love super Nintendo games
266. I love roller coaster tycoon
267. I love Bioshock
268. Spotify is the best invention ever
269. I love legos
270. I hope nick likes his Christmas present(s)
271. I love hot showers
272. Music soothes my soul
273. Toilet paper has to be soft
274. I love orange juice
275. I will not buy off brand laundry detergent
276. I love mushrooms
277. I don’t like most vegetables
278. I’ve always wanted to teach
279. I am nervous to meet nicks biological dad
280. ^ I think he is nervous too
281. My mom wants to be nicks mom too
282. ^she said she is going to ‘adopt’ him
283. I want to meet Taylor Swift
284. I miss humidity
285. I miss my daddy
286. I will always be daddy’s little
287. I had caffeine tonight
288. I hate loud noises
289. I don’t like foot rubs
290. I can’t get massages because I’m too ticklish
291. I am not racist
292. Cards against humanity is hilarious
293. I love monopoly
294. I hate history
295. I want to write better
296. I wish I was a singer / songwriter
297. I have only performed once
298. I miss high school choir
299. ^I miss theatre too..
300. I love space heaters
301. We used to put a space heater in my dogs house outside
302. I am excited to go in the temple
303. I love my grandparent
304. I miss my grandparents
305. I wish I wasn’t so jealous all the time
306. I know my family loves me
307. I know I love Nick
308. I want to be a good person for him
309. I hate getting my socks wet
310. I love swimming
311. I love the ocean
312. I love hot tubs
313. I hate the smell of indoor pools
314. I want to kiss nick right now
315. I always want to kiss nick
316. This is taking forever! Haha
317. I love the feeling of clean dishes
318. I hate doing other peoples dishes
319. Sometimes doing dishes calms me down
320. Eternity with him isn’t long enough
321. I don’t want romance to go away
322.  I am afraid of getting pregnant
323. Superman is pretty cool
324. Christmas is only 9 days away!
325. I don’t know if I want to tell my kids about Santa
326. I have a sexy Santa outfit
327. I get up really early on Christmas
328. I don’t know what nick got me for Christmas
329. I am excited to go back to VA for a bit
330. I miss the spring
331. I wish my feet weren’t so big
332. I hate my feet
333. I like my hands
334. I wish my boobs were bigger
335. My butt is awesome right now 
336. I love sexy underwear
337. I am going to miss wearing thongs
338. I hate running
339. I love yoga
340. I don’t have a best friend in the apartment
341. I want him here right now
342. I love love!
343. I hate being a girl sometimes
344. I never want to shave again!
345. Everyone thinks I am part Asian
346. I am so excited for my wedding reception
347. I am excited to be getting sisters (by marriage)
348. I hate earbuds
349. ^ because my ears are too small for them
350. I wish I was stronger
351. I wish I met nick sooner
352. I stole nick from another girl
353. I love shoes!
354. I wear boots almost every day
355. I want to be truly happy
356. I hate fighting
357. I hate contention
358. I hate disagreements
359. I cry really easily
360. Sometimes I just need to cry
361. I am lucky to be marrying my best friend
362. I hate complicated things
363. I can’t to have a house of my own
364. I am tired of going to school
365. I want to love him forever
366. I don’t like birds
367. I hate not getting sleep
368. I hate super loud people
369. I am an introvert
370. I love the smell of clean towels
371. I love baking
372. I love cooking dinner
373. I love the fall leaves
374. I am more of a night owl than an early bird
375. I love our first kiss
376. I love our first conversation
377. I love our trust  
378. I love his smile
379. I love his dimple
380. I love his eyes
381. I love his hands
382. I love the way he holds me
383. I love the way he kisses me
384. I love how he loves me
385. I love his hair
386. I love his personality
387. I love his jokes
388. I love his dance moves
389. I love the way he holds my hand
390. I love his love
391. I just love him