Wednesday, September 16, 2015

adventure

So it is my third day of school! Wahoo! I got up for my first class ready for the day. Everything was good. I woke up on time, I had time to actually do my hair, I had extra time to do my make-up, I got to wear my new boots, and its cold! I am excited for it to be cold again because I can wear all my sweaters again! I love sweaters. So everything was going good. Then Nick and I drove to school and couldn't find a parking spot close to our classes. So we kept going further and further out next thing we know we are at least a ten minute walk from our classes and our classes start in ten minutes so we find a parking spot and start walking very fast towards our classes. Nick's building was before mine so I hope he made it on time to his class, but I got to my classroom with thirty seconds to spare. Just to see a note on the door that says that the class was cancelled. Like what the heck! I usually check my email before class to just make sure no classes are cancelled. But of course the one day I dont check... Its cancelled. Welcome to the adventurous life of Emma... Ugh its so frustrating.

So now I am sitting in the library and I am cold, but sweaty from trying to get to my class on time. Welp, hopefully my next class isn't cancelled. Guess I should check my email now..

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Tomorrow!

Well.. one wedding, 3 moves, 9 months, and $400 dollars worth of text books later and I finally get to start school again! Tonight is my last night of freedom and then I am going to become a full time student again! Which I am both very excited and very anxious about. I only have 19 hours until my first class. So many mixed feelings! I;m just feeling exhausted because, what do I do when I'm anxious? I clean and clean and clean again! My apartment isn't even that big, but I just clean and re-clean and organize and re-organize... I have a problem!

Monday, August 31, 2015

Prayers Are Answered

Holy Goodness!

I am so happy right now! Nick and I have been praying for our financial aid to be approved. We both had a few struggles with our grades which is what may have prevented us from receiving federal financial aid. So we had to petition about getting our financial aid. Basically, we both had to write a letter explaining what prevented us from doing well in previous semesters. So we did. We had to write and rewrite those letters three times to get them "pre-approved". That's basically just getting them approved to be reviewed by the financial aid board. So that was a head ache. It took about a week and a half to fianlly get them to accept the letters to be reviewed. I recieved news back the next day saying that mine was apporved, but we hadn't head about Nicks letter so we were a little discouraged. We prayed every night that it would be approved. We made sure to read our scriptures. We paid our tithing on Sunday. We made sure we prayed together every night as well as on our own. We needed to have that prayer answered. And it was!

Our prayers were answered and we received news this morning that we will be receiving federal financial aid! We couldn't be more grateful!

Not only will we get federal loans, but we also receive pel-grants which we do not have to pay back. That is such a big relief! We are so grateful to out Heavenly Father for blessing us so that we can continue to go to school!

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

New Everything

Since getting back from Utah, I have felt almost brand new. Our cupbords are stocked and we have a lot of new stuff! I love how excited I get over new plates! So we got a bunch of new kitchen things thanks to Michelle Cammack. She was going to give me some stuff she has had, but never really used for our wedding, but we were out of state so she said she would hang on to the stuff until we were able to pick it up! Which we did when we went down to Utah! Along with the plates we got a hot sandwich maker, a blender, a pitcher, some fun stemware, and a cute candy dish holder! Now that's not a ton of stuff, but it basically doubled what we had before! So  its pretty awesome! Also while we were down in Utah Nick went to his first Ikea! He had never been and I couldn't wait to show him all of the neat things they had. While we were there my fantastic momma got us a few things for only $11! We got a plastic bag holder to hang on the wall, two plastic cutting boards, and a silverware divider! Even those small things make me so happy! Then when we got back and I finished putting the apartment together, I decided we needed a few things. So I went out and bought a Swiffer so I can properly clean my floors. AND I got curtains for our bedroom!

This new apartment makes me feel like a different person because I can actually do things in here! I dont feel like I am living in a closet!

Things are still a bit chaotic because my younger brother is staying with us until school starts, but once his stuff is all cleared out of here, I will take pictures so you can see what the new place looks like! I love love love love love love love love love this apartment.

Where you live really effects how you feel. Having space and being able to cook in an actual kitchen makes life so much better.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

this crazy thing called life

Where do I even begin?

So many things have been happening. I got a new job. Which is better and worse than my last one. And my husband works with me, which is one of the better parts. So we have been working our little butts off trying to make enough money to eat. I also have a wedding to shoot this week, but in order to go down to the wedding I needed car insurance since my husbands dad decided to stop paying for it and didn't even tell us for 2 weeks after he cancelled it. So we got car insurance today! (I feel so grown up) then Nick has been so busy with finals and we have been running everywhere to get things for presentations and final projects and I have helped him with the artsy side of things so I feel like I have been doing most of his project, but that's okay. So now he is on his last few days of school so you would think we could relax. NOPE! I have that wedding to shoot this week and I need to get the apartment pretty clean so that when we go to move out next week it will be easier to clean if details are already done! Then the day we move in we also have to leave to go down to Utah with my family for a bridal shower and then get ready to put on a wedding. So we are gonna be busy busy busy...

I just want to pause and take a breather. The only good thing about going down to Utah for that time is not only do I get to see my brother get married, but also, We will be able to have family time! Which is very needed! We spend so much time cooped up in this apartment and this little town that getting out of here is nice and having family around is even nicer!

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

We Are Moving!

That is right folks! We are moving! We are staying in our complex, but we are just moving up to a bigger apartment. The complex we are staying at has furnished studio apartments. They are nice and also new, but the one we have is just a little small for us. I have some pictures to show you what I am talking about, but we will be moving the first of August! So Nick just needs to finish out this semester and then we will be in a larger apartment! Thank goodness!

Now I don't want to say anything bad about the complex, because honestly, they are awesome! The only thing that really drives me crazy is the kitchen! I love to cook and bake and just experiment in the kitchen so having a tiny kitchen is not cutting it for me. So here are some pictures of the apartment we are staying in now. It is considered a "Pocket Kitchen"



So as you can see, it is very (and I mean VERY) crowded. It is workable, but imagine trying to make dinner in here. Even if its super simple like pasta, it is still so frustrating to have NO counter space to put things on.

Also the living room situation can be odd at times. When you have people over, you have no choice, but to have them sit on the couch and you sit on the bed. That can be kind of weird sometimes..

So now here are some pictures of the new apartment and some things I am excited about! This is considered a "One Bedroom"







I am going to feel so much better in here. To have my clothes separate from my living area is going to be such a blessing! I am so excited to move I wish I could move this weekend! My goal was to move into a larger apartment by August so that we would have a month to completely settle in before school starts up again, and we did it! I am so excited!

At the moment Nick has a 8:00am class so he gets up around 6:30am and he can't get up and get ready without waking me up. This way in the mornings, and even at night, one person can still get their sleep while the other one is doing homework or going to school! It will be so much more convenient! I am so EXCITED!

Monday, May 11, 2015

Quite some time

Well, it has been quite some time since I have written on this blog! Crazy things have been happening! All of my time and energy has been sucked into getting my photography business up and running. My husband and I are working to get things in place before I officially "launch" I guess. I am really excited to share all of my pictures and things that have been going on with emma dorsett photography! 

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Gratitude

**Just as a disclaimer, I am changing the names in this story and if anyone figures out who it is about, I apologize if it offends you in any way. It just opened my eyes to a few things**

So tonight, Nick and I enjoyed a movie night with some close friends of ours. Rachel and Andrew. Rachel was my roommate and Andrew is Nicks friend who he has known for quite sometime. So we were watching the move and Rachel was working on some Spanish homework. Then at the end of the movie Rachel was reading it out loud for Andrew to time it and see how long it was, but Andrew was being a little difficult, in my opinion.

Rachel would read something maybe five or six words maximum and Andrew would one: correct her pronunciation. Two: Say something along the lines of "that's not how you say that." Three: say "this isn't that hard" or four: "you aren't making any sense."

This went on. She would spit out a few words and then came the correction and/ or rude comment. This happened over and over again. Then the part that pissed me off the most was that Rachel was obviously getting frustrated...

You know the thing that most girls do when they get frustrated? They put their hands to their head and usually rub their forehead harshly out of frustration?

Ya she did that and every time she would do that Andrew would say "STOP!" or "stop touching your face" "you don't need to so that" "Rachel, stop touching your face like that" "why are you doing that. Just stop it"

Like WHAT! Just let her be frustrated! Anyway,

The point of that was to say how grateful I am to have a husband who loves me. Now, we fight. Sometimes over stupid things that don't really matter, but I am grateful that he has never talked to me like this, Andrew was talking to Rachel as if she was stupid or something. He wasn't letting her learn my trial and error. She would say something wrong and immediately tell her how wrong it was. He should have let her do her assignment and then afterwards made a few suggestions on things she may want to do differently. I don't know, I'm sure they were just having a moment, but it made it really awkward for a bit because this went on for a half an hour before Rachel got so frustrated she just closed her laptop and said she needed to go home. I am grateful that my husband doesn't speak to me like that and he values my efforts and if I happen to do something wrong he simply makes a suggestion on how to do it better, rather than insult my intelligence. And I am glad that I don't have to speak Spanish.... just saying...

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Day 14 Thoughts

Today is day number fourteen of Nick and I living in our apartment in Rexburg. 
So in the last two weeks we have...... 

been to the grocery store for what feels like a million times, 

we have learned not to keep wet things in the bathroom (it starts to stink), 

we have enjoyed the available hot tub and pool, 

we have cooked a lot of stir fry, 

I got a job, 

we realized how annoying laundry can be when it's not in your apartment, 

we have met both of our neighbors (the loud ones and the quiet ones... I like the quiet ones more... for multiple reasons.), 

we realized how easy cereal is to eat (and how little mess it makes), 

we went to church and finally got to the right ward... eventually, 

we found out a lot of married couples never go to church, 

we saw lots of babies at church and fell in love with them (* but no. no babies any time soon!!!*), 

we have heard an ungodly amount of one direction- at 1 o'clock in the morning, I might add- thanks to our noisy neighbors (that's one reason I like the other ones better), 

we bought a calendar to keep our schedules straight, 

Nick has sold his body for money multiple times (no... not that... he was donating plasma), 

and we have seen how great it is to have our own place and be able to actually live on our own! 

Thursday, March 26, 2015

19 and Married

I hate the questions and comments I got. 

"Why are you doing this? You have your whole life ahead of you."
"You are still a teenager, what do you know about marriage?" 
"You have your whole life to get married."
"Why do you want to be tied down?" 

and then there was the worst

"wow... marriage!... congratulations!..." 

They tried to be happy for me, but I could see the judgement behind their eyes and hear the questioning in their voice. 

I just have a few things to say to those questions. 

I do have my whole life ahead of me. And I feel to fortunate that I get to spend it with someone whom I love and adore. 

I am a teenager and I may not know a lot about marriage, but I want to learn how to have a successful relationship early so I don't have to experience years and years of heart break. And not only do I want to learn, but I want to learn with my best friend. 

I do have my whole life to get married, so why not now? I want my whole life to be with the one I love. 

I am not tied down. If you think marrying your best friend ties you down, then you have some other issues you need to work on. 

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Now, I will be frank with you. I did give up a lot when I got married. 

I gave up my time. I gave up my money. I gave up my freedom to do what I want when I want. I gave up my body. I gave up every last part of myself. 

But that does not compare to what I gained. 

I got someone who is committed to me forever. I get to have a sleepover with my best friend every night. I got a man who loves me. I get the opportunity to start building a healthy relationship  for my future family. I will get to have children. I get to depend on someone I love

I would not take back anything. I love living with my best friend and I am so glad that I chose to get married. I will forever be grateful for my best friend. 


I got a job!

So... I got a job! I am pretty excited! Its gonna be long hours and long days, but I will be okay! I will be working Monday through Friday noon to eight o'clock PM... although I get off Saturday and Sunday being a full time employee! So that is good! Nick applied for the same job (but part time) today so hopefully he will hear back soon! I am so excited to be starting our lives together! I feel so grown up! We even bought a big calendar for our wall today so that we can keep track of schedules!


Sunday, March 22, 2015

We Are Here!

So we are finally in Rexburg! We are so excited we are settled into our little apartment and we love it! It is kind of small, but it will work perfectly for us. Our complex has everything we need from laundry to exercise, but we also have a pool and hot tub! So we are loving it!

When we first arrived we were excited about how quiet it was. We soon found out that it does stay pretty quiet except for what I like to call "happy hour" on the weekdays it happens around 8pm and Saturday its kind of an all day thing and then on Sunday its right when everyone gets out of church. So yeah. It isn't very quiet around those times. All you hear is the creaking of beds and people turning on their TV's trying to drown the sound out. Plus, the walls here are pretty much paper thin. I can hear my neighbors conversation almost clear as day. And I am sure they can hear ours. But oh well! We still love it. It is a great first apartment!

Monday, March 16, 2015

This is where I leave you.

As I sit here eating frosted flakes, with no milk I might add, I am overjoyed about the new journey I am about to embark. Tomorrow I will be on a plane that will arrive in Salt Lake City, Utah. Then the next day I will be on the long journey up to Idaho to move into an apartment. Now, the best part about this new journey and this apartment is who I will be sharing it with. My darling husband. I feel so fortunate that we are going to be able to financially support ourselves and live on our own. And I hope I don't regret saying this, but I am grateful that we will have to struggle a little bit and live as poor college students do.

I am grateful for this opportunity and I am so glad I have my best friend to experience it with! Idaho, here we come!

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

IT ' S O F F I C I A L ! ! !

One month from today Nick and I will be moving into our very own apartment in Rexburg, Idaho! I am so beyond excited! The place is fully furnished thankfully. So we don't have to buy big furniture items right away. It is furnished with a bed, a desk, a bookshelf, a couch, and a small food area with a refrigerator, sink, microwave, and hot plate. We will be in that apartment for a little while and then move to a bigger one when we have the chance! I am so excited!

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

in need of a new view.

I have been so freaked out lately by how badly I want to move back to Idaho. I don't really like Idaho that much because, well, it's kind of boring. There isn't much to do (especially in Rexburg) and I get bored easily. Now granted, I didn't have Nicolas there with me, but it was still pretty boring. However, I find myself wanting to move back there so badly. I don't know if it's because I am tired of living with my parents already or I just want to be on my own or something else, but all I know is I need to get the heck out of here as soon as I can so that I don't go crazy. At least if I had a job I feel like it would make life a lot easier and useful. I just feel like I am floating. I clean the house to keep myself busy. And there is only so much you can clean before the whole thing is spick and span. I just don't want to go completely insane...


Monday, February 9, 2015

-Sydney Taylor Bruning - Part Two - Year Two -

Saturday was two years.

Time flies baby girl.

I can hardly believe it has been two years since I said goodbye to you. I can still see your bright red lips that I could see from across the room. I can still feel the hole in my chest when I saw you laying there. When I looked at you and just prayed that your eyes would open... But they didn't.

I saw a picture of you a couple weeks ago and it made me smile. I think for a split second I forgot you were gone. I saw the smile on your face and it felt like you were still here. I would give anything for that. I hope you know that I love you and I still miss you. I always will. The pain that I felt will never leave my memory. The pain is lesser now, but I still remember just how powerful it was. I still remember it.. and I always will.

Sydney, I hope you're doing okay up there. I know that you are safe and in good hands. That's what makes me happy. I know you are going to be okay and I know you are okay. I hope you are looking out for us down here. We love you syd. I hope you know that,


Red lips and a laugh to fill a room,

A beautiful smile,

A beautiful girl.

She made the day brighter

She made the night more cheerful.

She knew how to make you smile

She knew how to keep your spirits up

Then one day we lost her.

We lost her laugh

and her smile

and her spirit.

But we will always remember those red lips

we will always remember her laugh

we will always remember her smile

we will always remember Sydney Taylor Bruning.



Thursday, February 5, 2015

overdue, but understood

I am M A R  R I E D!! 
It's official, I am Mrs. Dorsett! 

How crazy is that?! 
It feels like I have waited forever for this, but its going by so fast already! 

We have been married for 27 days already....? Its already almost been a full month! 

I need a minute for that to process.. 

So just as an update... 

/// we are living in my parents basement for the moment. we are currently searching for jobs. which is going okay, i guess. however, we are so grateful for my parents generosity in letting us stay here. we will probably be here until late, or mid april. when april comes around we will be moving out to rexburg, idaho. we will not be going back to school until that next fall. upon our return to idaho we will move in to an apartment and get jobs to start settling in. then after we have things under control for a couple months we will begin school again for the fall 2015 semester./// 

Here are a couple of pictures from the wedding day! They are not great quality. Reason being they are scans. My amazing photographer gave me a few prints from the day. So the real pictures will be better quality, obviously. Oh my photographer is Kelli Brewer! Her website is kellibrewer.com so you should check her out! Plus, my wedding should be posted on there soon too! But for now here are some pictures!