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IT ' S O F F I C I A L ! ! !

One month from today Nick and I will be moving into our very own apartment in Rexburg, Idaho! I am so beyond excited! The place is fully furnished thankfully. So we don't have to buy big furniture items right away. It is furnished with a bed, a desk, a bookshelf, a couch, and a small food area with a refrigerator, sink, microwave, and hot plate. We will be in that apartment for a little while and then move to a bigger one when we have the chance! I am so excited!

in need of a new view.

I have been so freaked out lately by how badly I want to move back to Idaho. I don't really like Idaho that much because, well, it's kind of boring. There isn't much to do (especially in Rexburg) and I get bored easily. Now granted, I didn't have Nicolas there with me, but it was still pretty boring. However, I find myself wanting to move back there so badly. I don't know if it's because I am tired of living with my parents already or I just want to be on my own or something else, but all I know is I need to get the heck out of here as soon as I can so that I don't go crazy. At least if I had a job I feel like it would make life a lot easier and useful. I just feel like I am floating. I clean the house to keep myself busy. And there is only so much you can clean before the whole thing is spick and span. I just don't want to go completely insane...

-Sydney Taylor Bruning - Part Two - Year Two -

Saturday was two years.

Time flies baby girl.

I can hardly believe it has been two years since I said goodbye to you. I can still see your bright red lips that I could see from across the room. I can still feel the hole in my chest when I saw you laying there. When I looked at you and just prayed that your eyes would open... But they didn't.

I saw a picture of you a couple weeks ago and it made me smile. I think for a split second I forgot you were gone. I saw the smile on your face and it felt like you were still here. I would give anything for that. I hope you know that I love you and I still miss you. I always will. The pain that I felt will never leave my memory. The pain is lesser now, but I still remember just how powerful it was. I still remember it.. and I always will.

Sydney, I hope you're doing okay up there. I know that you are safe and in good hands. That's what makes me happy. I know you are going to be okay and I know you are okay. I hope you are looking out for us down here. We love you syd. I hope you know that,


Red lips and a laugh to fill a room,

A beautiful smile,

A beautiful girl.

She made the day brighter

She made the night more cheerful.

She knew how to make you smile

She knew how to keep your spirits up

Then one day we lost her.

We lost her laugh

and her smile

and her spirit.

But we will always remember those red lips

we will always remember her laugh

we will always remember her smile

we will always remember Sydney Taylor Bruning.

overdue, but understood

I am M A R  R I E D!! 

It's official, I am Mrs. Dorsett! 

How crazy is that?! 

It feels like I have waited forever for this, but its going by so fast already! 

We have been married for 27 days already....? Its already almost been a full month! 

I need a minute for that to process.. 

So just as an update... 

/// we are living in my parents basement for the moment. we are currently searching for jobs. which is going okay, i guess. however, we are so grateful for my parents generosity in letting us stay here. we will probably be here until late, or mid april. when april comes around we will be moving out to rexburg, idaho. we will not be going back to school until that next fall. upon our return to idaho we will move in to an apartment and get jobs to start settling in. then after we have things under control for a couple months we will begin school again for the fall 2015 semester./// 

Here are a couple of pictures from the wedding day! They are not great quality. Reason being they are scans. My amazing photographer gave me a few prints from the day. So the real pictures will be better quality, obviously. Oh my photographer is Kelli Brewer! Her website is kellibrewer.com so you should check her out! Plus, my wedding should be posted on there soon too! But for now here are some pictures!

 

391

It has been 391 days since I kissed and met nick for the first time... So here are 391 random thoughts! :) 

1. I love nick
2. I want to live in Hawaii
3. I love playing donkey kong
4. I want my life to be like vampire diaries
5. I am grateful for my roommates this semester
6. I miss Jade
7. I miss Panera
8. I love writing
9. I want to be Mrs. Dorsett already
10. I wish I could fly
11. I love batman
12. Big T-shirts make me happy
13. I am not good at math
14. I love kids
15. I miss my mom
16. I love Virginia
17. I love the smell of tide laundry detergent
18. Fuzzy socks make me happy
19. I really don’t like some people
20. I wish my teeth weren’t sensitive
21. I am happy to be moving out of my apartment
22. Clean kitchens are my favorite
23. I wish my teeth were straight
24. I love my wedding dress
25. I stress out easily
26. I hate the feeling of grass
27. I hate dirty kitchens
28. Warm blankets can always cheer me up
29. I love Nick’s laugh
30. My favorite color is blue
31. I miss my dog
32. My dad is my hero
33. I love my older brother
34. I love my younger brother
35. I wish I had a sister
36. I am glad I don’t have a sister
37. I have a lot of inner turmoil
38. I love my hair when its straight
39. I miss my long hair
40. I love my house in Virginia
41. I hate dealing with finances
42. I like the house a little cold
43. I love hot chocolate
44. I wonder how many kids I will have
45. I wish my name was Emmalou
46. I want 3 kids
47. I love crafts
48. I wish I was an artist
49. I want to learn how to draw
50. I have a lot of anxiety
51. I think I am depressed sometimes
52. Les Miserables is my favorite musical
53. Ian Somerhalder is BAE
54. I wish I could sing better
55. Guitar is my passion
56. I cant wait to have sex
57. White boards are weird
58. I miss my best friend
59. I used to be bad
60. I love God
61. I love my Savior
62. I cant wait to be sealed to Nicolas
63. I want to be a photographer
64. I love the name Thora
65. I want a dog
66. I don’t like Rexburg
67. I miss having the 3 musketeers
68. I want to be a millionaire
69. I am lazy
70. I wish I could write a song
71. I love the rain
72. I hate the snow
73. I love the spring time
74. I hate winter
75. I love church
76. I hate singles wards
77. I love the smell of drier sheets
78. I love sweat pants
79. I hate science
80. I love astronomy
81. I am excited to leave Rexburg
82. I love Nicolas with all my heart
83. I love nicks beard
84. I wish I was 10 pounds lighter
85. I wish I had more motivation
86. I want my hair to be more red
87. I get cold really easily
88. I am kind of a brat sometimes
89. I wish my mom was here
90. I love my legs
91. I hate my tummy
92. I wish I had a belly button ring
93. I have always wanted a tattoo
94. I love writing in cursive
95. I don’t read the instructions
96. I hate packing
97. I wish I was low maintenance
98. I am scared of growing up
99. I hate shaving my legs
100. I am very self-conscious
101. I have a very guilty conscious
102. I love my heating blanket
103. Fuzzy blankets are amazing
104. I love minty face wash
105. I hate zits
106. I love conditioner
107. Loofas make life amazing
108. Bubble baths soothe the soul
109. I am scared of getting a massage
110. I love who I am right now
111. I love who I am becoming
112. I love my phone
113. I love taking pictures
114. I love my fiancé
115. I love/hate  scary movies
116. I love fluffy carpet
117. I need him in my life
118. I love being tall
119. I love high heels
120. I wish I was two inches shorter
121. I love Taylor swift
122. I want to go to a concert
123. This is taking way too long…
124. I love driving mini vans
125. I act strong, but I’m not
126. I love my guitar
127. I love taking notes
128. I want to be a mom
129. I hate birth control
130. I don’t fully understand condoms…
131. ^ I want to know what they feel like
132. I am a nightmare dressed like a day dream
133. I am kind of crazy
134. I wish I could come clean about everything
135. I love freshly painted nails
136. I hate waiting for nails to dry
137. Pink lemonade is amazing
138. I have an obsession with taco bell
139. Baja Blast is amazing
140. I hate thinking about the past
141. I wish I could forget things more easily
142. I forgive him very fast
143. I hate living with girls
144. I am so excited to be getting married
145. Weddings are crazy
146. I am excited to meet his family
147. I wish I was better at school
148. I am very awkward
149. I wish I still danced
150. I really enjoy roller skating
151. Nick and Emma vs. The World
152. Dogs are my favorite
153. I don’t like cats
154. I don’t mind kittens
155. I am allergic to bunnies
156. I am allergic to cats
157. I want to be successful
158. I love curling my hair
159. When I look pretty I feel more confident
160. I hate working at McDonalds
161. I won’t go back to McDonalds
162. I am so happy I have Nick in my life
163. I don’t regret anything with him
164. I know God loves me
165. Ed Sheeran’s voice is amazing
166. Love hurts
167. Pictures make life better
168. I wish life was more simple
169. I wish I was more flexible
170. He makes me feel alive
171. I wish I played the guitar more
172. I have only kissed four boys
173. I have only had three boyfriends
174. I dated my first boyfriend for 9 months
175. I love the holidays
176. I AM GETTING MARRIED!
177. I am lucky to have great parents
178. I am sick of the cold
179. I hope my kids will love life
180. I want to raise my kids right
181. I am happy that Nick will be their father
182. I love my wedding veil
183. I hate the dark sometimes
184. I can only sleep in complete darkness
185. I can only sleep in complete silence
186. I am going to miss the friends I made this semester
187. I wish I could rap
188. Nick is my best friend
189. Nick is the only person I am 100% honest with
190. I hate Iphones
191. I hate Apple…
192. I love death cab for cutie
193. I used to be obsessed with coheed and cambria
194. I hate death
195. I hate thinking about my future
196. I love messy buns
197. I love hair products
198. I wish my hair was longer
199. I miss the beach
200. OBX is my favorite place to relax
201. Disney is life!
202. I am going to Disney on my honeymoon
203. I have the vampire diaries necklace
204. I need more socks
205. I hope it doesn’t snow very much in VA this winter
206. I wish I knew how to finger pick on the guitar
207. I hate little red lights in the dark
208. I am almost finished packing
209. I hate the feeling of cotton pads
210. Nail polish remover gives me the chills
211. I hate dry skin
212. I love my wedding ring
213. Rode gold is my favorite
214. I love the ring I got for nick
215. I hate my toes
216. I hate getting pedicures
217. My younger brother is awesome at skateboarding
218. I love bushing my hair
219. I wish my hair was naturally straight
220. I lose so much hair every day
221. I love vacuuming carpets
222. I love the smell of lemon cleaning products roller coaster are awesome
223. I love wood floors
224. I love ice cream
225. ^ but I am lactose intolerant
226. I love frozen yogurt
227. Ice skating is awesome
228. I wish I could do ballet
229. I want to do better in school
230. I am done with school for 9 months
231. ^ that makes me really happy
232. I am jealous of Nick’s guitar skills
233. I love the Book of Mormon
234. I am a daughter of God
235. Nick and I have something beautiful between us
236. I love to sleep
237. Like I LOVE to sleep!
238. I can sleep for 10 hours a night and be perfectly content
239. I get sick if I don’t sleep
240. I am excited to meet his siblings
241. I am excited to go to California
242. I haven’t been to California besides Disney Land
243. I like the taste of envelope glue
244. I love writing in different fonts
245. I hate cleaning other peoples messes
246. Food in the sink grosses me out
247. I go to bed early for a college student
248. I can listen to the same song over and over
249. I love tan walls
250. I love decorating houses/ rooms
251. I wish I felt the spirit more often
252. I wish I got angry less
253. I want to be more patient
254. My mom is freaking amazing
255. I love Instagram
256. I love Facebook
257. I hate twitter
258. Snapchat is amazing
259. I love bonfires
260. I love the smell of clothes after you have been around a fire
261. I love the sand dunes
262. Smores are amazing!
263. Chocolate can cure any sadness
264. I am scared to have kids
265. I love super Nintendo games
266. I love roller coaster tycoon
267. I love Bioshock
268. Spotify is the best invention ever
269. I love legos
270. I hope nick likes his Christmas present(s)
271. I love hot showers
272. Music soothes my soul
273. Toilet paper has to be soft
274. I love orange juice
275. I will not buy off brand laundry detergent
276. I love mushrooms
277. I don’t like most vegetables
278. I’ve always wanted to teach
279. I am nervous to meet nicks biological dad
280. ^ I think he is nervous too
281. My mom wants to be nicks mom too
282. ^she said she is going to ‘adopt’ him
283. I want to meet Taylor Swift
284. I miss humidity
285. I miss my daddy
286. I will always be daddy’s little
287. I had caffeine tonight
288. I hate loud noises
289. I don’t like foot rubs
290. I can’t get massages because I’m too ticklish
291. I am not racist
292. Cards against humanity is hilarious
293. I love monopoly
294. I hate history
295. I want to write better
296. I wish I was a singer / songwriter
297. I have only performed once
298. I miss high school choir
299. ^I miss theatre too..
300. I love space heaters
301. We used to put a space heater in my dogs house outside
302. I am excited to go in the temple
303. I love my grandparent
304. I miss my grandparents
305. I wish I wasn’t so jealous all the time
306. I know my family loves me
307. I know I love Nick
308. I want to be a good person for him
309. I hate getting my socks wet
310. I love swimming
311. I love the ocean
312. I love hot tubs
313. I hate the smell of indoor pools
314. I want to kiss nick right now
315. I always want to kiss nick
316. This is taking forever! Haha
317. I love the feeling of clean dishes
318. I hate doing other peoples dishes
319. Sometimes doing dishes calms me down
320. Eternity with him isn’t long enough
321. I don’t want romance to go away
322.  I am afraid of getting pregnant
323. Superman is pretty cool
324. Christmas is only 9 days away!
325. I don’t know if I want to tell my kids about Santa
326. I have a sexy Santa outfit
327. I get up really early on Christmas
328. I don’t know what nick got me for Christmas
329. I am excited to go back to VA for a bit
330. I miss the spring
331. I wish my feet weren’t so big
332. I hate my feet
333. I like my hands
334. I wish my boobs were bigger
335. My butt is awesome right now 
336. I love sexy underwear
337. I am going to miss wearing thongs
338. I hate running
339. I love yoga
340. I don’t have a best friend in the apartment
341. I want him here right now
342. I love love!
343. I hate being a girl sometimes
344. I never want to shave again!
345. Everyone thinks I am part Asian
346. I am so excited for my wedding reception
347. I am excited to be getting sisters (by marriage)
348. I hate earbuds
349. ^ because my ears are too small for them
350. I wish I was stronger
351. I wish I met nick sooner
352. I stole nick from another girl
353. I love shoes!
354. I wear boots almost every day
355. I want to be truly happy
356. I hate fighting
357. I hate contention
358. I hate disagreements
359. I cry really easily
360. Sometimes I just need to cry
361. I am lucky to be marrying my best friend
362. I hate complicated things
363. I can’t to have a house of my own
364. I am tired of going to school
365. I want to love him forever
366. I don’t like birds
367. I hate not getting sleep
368. I hate super loud people
369. I am an introvert
370. I love the smell of clean towels
371. I love baking
372. I love cooking dinner
373. I love the fall leaves
374. I am more of a night owl than an early bird
375. I love our first kiss
376. I love our first conversation
377. I love our trust  
378. I love his smile
379. I love his dimple
380. I love his eyes
381. I love his hands
382. I love the way he holds me
383. I love the way he kisses me
384. I love how he loves me
385. I love his hair
386. I love his personality
387. I love his jokes
388. I love his dance moves
389. I love the way he holds my hand
390. I love his love
391. I just love him