adventure

So it is my third day of school! Wahoo! I got up for my first class ready for the day. Everything was good. I woke up on time, I had time to actually do my hair, I had extra time to do my make-up, I got to wear my new boots, and its cold! I am excited for it to be cold again because I can wear all my sweaters again! I love sweaters. So everything was going good. Then Nick and I drove to school and couldn't find a parking spot close to our classes. So we kept going further and further out next thing we know we are at least a ten minute walk from our classes and our classes start in ten minutes so we find a parking spot and start walking very fast towards our classes. Nick's building was before mine so I hope he made it on time to his class, but I got to my classroom with thirty seconds to spare. Just to see a note on the door that says that the class was cancelled. Like what the heck! I usually check my email before class to just make sure no classes are cancelled. But of course the one day I dont check... Its cancelled. Welcome to the adventurous life of Emma... Ugh its so frustrating.

So now I am sitting in the library and I am cold, but sweaty from trying to get to my class on time. Welp, hopefully my next class isn't cancelled. Guess I should check my email now..

Tomorrow!

Well.. one wedding, 3 moves, 9 months, and $400 dollars worth of text books later and I finally get to start school again! Tonight is my last night of freedom and then I am going to become a full time student again! Which I am both very excited and very anxious about. I only have 19 hours until my first class. So many mixed feelings! I;m just feeling exhausted because, what do I do when I'm anxious? I clean and clean and clean again! My apartment isn't even that big, but I just clean and re-clean and organize and re-organize... I have a problem!

Prayers Are Answered

Holy Goodness!

I am so happy right now! Nick and I have been praying for our financial aid to be approved. We both had a few struggles with our grades which is what may have prevented us from receiving federal financial aid. So we had to petition about getting our financial aid. Basically, we both had to write a letter explaining what prevented us from doing well in previous semesters. So we did. We had to write and rewrite those letters three times to get them "pre-approved". That's basically just getting them approved to be reviewed by the financial aid board. So that was a head ache. It took about a week and a half to fianlly get them to accept the letters to be reviewed. I recieved news back the next day saying that mine was apporved, but we hadn't head about Nicks letter so we were a little discouraged. We prayed every night that it would be approved. We made sure to read our scriptures. We paid our tithing on Sunday. We made sure we prayed together every night as well as on our own. We needed to have that prayer answered. And it was!

Our prayers were answered and we received news this morning that we will be receiving federal financial aid! We couldn't be more grateful!

Not only will we get federal loans, but we also receive pel-grants which we do not have to pay back. That is such a big relief! We are so grateful to out Heavenly Father for blessing us so that we can continue to go to school!

New Everything

Since getting back from Utah, I have felt almost brand new. Our cupbords are stocked and we have a lot of new stuff! I love how excited I get over new plates! So we got a bunch of new kitchen things thanks to Michelle Cammack. She was going to give me some stuff she has had, but never really used for our wedding, but we were out of state so she said she would hang on to the stuff until we were able to pick it up! Which we did when we went down to Utah! Along with the plates we got a hot sandwich maker, a blender, a pitcher, some fun stemware, and a cute candy dish holder! Now that's not a ton of stuff, but it basically doubled what we had before! So  its pretty awesome! Also while we were down in Utah Nick went to his first Ikea! He had never been and I couldn't wait to show him all of the neat things they had. While we were there my fantastic momma got us a few things for only $11! We got a plastic bag holder to hang on the wall, two plastic cutting boards, and a silverware divider! Even those small things make me so happy! Then when we got back and I finished putting the apartment together, I decided we needed a few things. So I went out and bought a Swiffer so I can properly clean my floors. AND I got curtains for our bedroom!

This new apartment makes me feel like a different person because I can actually do things in here! I dont feel like I am living in a closet!

Things are still a bit chaotic because my younger brother is staying with us until school starts, but once his stuff is all cleared out of here, I will take pictures so you can see what the new place looks like! I love love love love love love love love love this apartment.

Where you live really effects how you feel. Having space and being able to cook in an actual kitchen makes life so much better.

this crazy thing called life

Where do I even begin?

So many things have been happening. I got a new job. Which is better and worse than my last one. And my husband works with me, which is one of the better parts. So we have been working our little butts off trying to make enough money to eat. I also have a wedding to shoot this week, but in order to go down to the wedding I needed car insurance since my husbands dad decided to stop paying for it and didn't even tell us for 2 weeks after he cancelled it. So we got car insurance today! (I feel so grown up) then Nick has been so busy with finals and we have been running everywhere to get things for presentations and final projects and I have helped him with the artsy side of things so I feel like I have been doing most of his project, but that's okay. So now he is on his last few days of school so you would think we could relax. NOPE! I have that wedding to shoot this week and I need to get the apartment pretty clean so that when we go to move out next week it will be easier to clean if details are already done! Then the day we move in we also have to leave to go down to Utah with my family for a bridal shower and then get ready to put on a wedding. So we are gonna be busy busy busy...

I just want to pause and take a breather. The only good thing about going down to Utah for that time is not only do I get to see my brother get married, but also, We will be able to have family time! Which is very needed! We spend so much time cooped up in this apartment and this little town that getting out of here is nice and having family around is even nicer!

We Are Moving!

That is right folks! We are moving! We are staying in our complex, but we are just moving up to a bigger apartment. The complex we are staying at has furnished studio apartments. They are nice and also new, but the one we have is just a little small for us. I have some pictures to show you what I am talking about, but we will be moving the first of August! So Nick just needs to finish out this semester and then we will be in a larger apartment! Thank goodness!

Now I don't want to say anything bad about the complex, because honestly, they are awesome! The only thing that really drives me crazy is the kitchen! I love to cook and bake and just experiment in the kitchen so having a tiny kitchen is not cutting it for me. So here are some pictures of the apartment we are staying in now. It is considered a "Pocket Kitchen"

So as you can see, it is very (and I mean VERY) crowded. It is workable, but imagine trying to make dinner in here. Even if its super simple like pasta, it is still so frustrating to have NO counter space to put things on.

Also the living room situation can be odd at times. When you have people over, you have no choice, but to have them sit on the couch and you sit on the bed. That can be kind of weird sometimes..

So now here are some pictures of the new apartment and some things I am excited about! This is considered a "One Bedroom"

I am going to feel so much better in here. To have my clothes separate from my living area is going to be such a blessing! I am so excited to move I wish I could move this weekend! My goal was to move into a larger apartment by August so that we would have a month to completely settle in before school starts up again, and we did it! I am so excited!

At the moment Nick has a 8:00am class so he gets up around 6:30am and he can't get up and get ready without waking me up. This way in the mornings, and even at night, one person can still get their sleep while the other one is doing homework or going to school! It will be so much more convenient! I am so EXCITED!

Quite some time

Well, it has been quite some time since I have written on this blog! Crazy things have been happening! All of my time and energy has been sucked into getting my photography business up and running. My husband and I are working to get things in place before I officially "launch" I guess. I am really excited to share all of my pictures and things that have been going on with emma dorsett photography! 

Gratitude

**Just as a disclaimer, I am changing the names in this story and if anyone figures out who it is about, I apologize if it offends you in any way. It just opened my eyes to a few things**

So tonight, Nick and I enjoyed a movie night with some close friends of ours. Rachel and Andrew. Rachel was my roommate and Andrew is Nicks friend who he has known for quite sometime. So we were watching the move and Rachel was working on some Spanish homework. Then at the end of the movie Rachel was reading it out loud for Andrew to time it and see how long it was, but Andrew was being a little difficult, in my opinion.

Rachel would read something maybe five or six words maximum and Andrew would one: correct her pronunciation. Two: Say something along the lines of "that's not how you say that." Three: say "this isn't that hard" or four: "you aren't making any sense."

This went on. She would spit out a few words and then came the correction and/ or rude comment. This happened over and over again. Then the part that pissed me off the most was that Rachel was obviously getting frustrated...

You know the thing that most girls do when they get frustrated? They put their hands to their head and usually rub their forehead harshly out of frustration?

Ya she did that and every time she would do that Andrew would say "STOP!" or "stop touching your face" "you don't need to so that" "Rachel, stop touching your face like that" "why are you doing that. Just stop it"

Like WHAT! Just let her be frustrated! Anyway,

The point of that was to say how grateful I am to have a husband who loves me. Now, we fight. Sometimes over stupid things that don't really matter, but I am grateful that he has never talked to me like this, Andrew was talking to Rachel as if she was stupid or something. He wasn't letting her learn my trial and error. She would say something wrong and immediately tell her how wrong it was. He should have let her do her assignment and then afterwards made a few suggestions on things she may want to do differently. I don't know, I'm sure they were just having a moment, but it made it really awkward for a bit because this went on for a half an hour before Rachel got so frustrated she just closed her laptop and said she needed to go home. I am grateful that my husband doesn't speak to me like that and he values my efforts and if I happen to do something wrong he simply makes a suggestion on how to do it better, rather than insult my intelligence. And I am glad that I don't have to speak Spanish.... just saying...

Day 14 Thoughts

Today is day number fourteen of Nick and I living in our apartment in Rexburg. 

So in the last two weeks we have...... 

been to the grocery store for what feels like a million times, 

we have learned not to keep wet things in the bathroom (it starts to stink), 

we have enjoyed the available hot tub and pool, 

we have cooked a lot of stir fry, 

I got a job, 

we realized how annoying laundry can be when it's not in your apartment, 

we have met both of our neighbors (the loud ones and the quiet ones... I like the quiet ones more... for multiple reasons.), 

we realized how easy cereal is to eat (and how little mess it makes), 

we went to church and finally got to the right ward... eventually, 

we found out a lot of married couples never go to church, 

we saw lots of babies at church and fell in love with them (* but no. no babies any time soon!!!*), 

we have heard an ungodly amount of one direction- at 1 o'clock in the morning, I might add- thanks to our noisy neighbors (that's one reason I like the other ones better), 

we bought a calendar to keep our schedules straight, 

Nick has sold his body for money multiple times (no... not that... he was donating plasma), 

and we have seen how great it is to have our own place and be able to actually live on our own! 

19 and Married

I hate the questions and comments I got. 

"Why are you doing this? You have your whole life ahead of you."

"You are still a teenager, what do you know about marriage?" 

"You have your whole life to get married."

"Why do you want to be tied down?" 

and then there was the worst. 

"wow... marriage!... congratulations!..." 

They tried to be happy for me, but I could see the judgement behind their eyes and hear the questioning in their voice. 

I just have a few things to say to those questions. 

I do have my whole life ahead of me. And I feel to fortunate that I get to spend it with someone whom I love and adore. 

I am a teenager and I may not know a lot about marriage, but I want to learn how to have a successful relationship early so I don't have to experience years and years of heart break. And not only do I want to learn, but I want to learn with my best friend. 

I do have my whole life to get married, so why not now? I want my whole life to be with the one I love. 

I am not tied down. If you think marrying your best friend ties you down, then you have some other issues you need to work on. 

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Now, I will be frank with you. I did give up a lot when I got married. 

I gave up my time. I gave up my money. I gave up my freedom to do what I want when I want. I gave up my body. I gave up every last part of myself. 

But that does not compare to what I gained. 

I got someone who is committed to me forever. I get to have a sleepover with my best friend every night. I got a man who loves me. I get the opportunity to start building a healthy relationship  for my future family. I will get to have children. I get to depend on someone I love. 

I would not take back anything. I love living with my best friend and I am so glad that I chose to get married. I will forever be grateful for my best friend. 

I got a job!

So... I got a job! I am pretty excited! Its gonna be long hours and long days, but I will be okay! I will be working Monday through Friday noon to eight o'clock PM... although I get off Saturday and Sunday being a full time employee! So that is good! Nick applied for the same job (but part time) today so hopefully he will hear back soon! I am so excited to be starting our lives together! I feel so grown up! We even bought a big calendar for our wall today so that we can keep track of schedules!

We Are Here!

So we are finally in Rexburg! We are so excited we are settled into our little apartment and we love it! It is kind of small, but it will work perfectly for us. Our complex has everything we need from laundry to exercise, but we also have a pool and hot tub! So we are loving it!

When we first arrived we were excited about how quiet it was. We soon found out that it does stay pretty quiet except for what I like to call "happy hour" on the weekdays it happens around 8pm and Saturday its kind of an all day thing and then on Sunday its right when everyone gets out of church. So yeah. It isn't very quiet around those times. All you hear is the creaking of beds and people turning on their TV's trying to drown the sound out. Plus, the walls here are pretty much paper thin. I can hear my neighbors conversation almost clear as day. And I am sure they can hear ours. But oh well! We still love it. It is a great first apartment!

This is where I leave you.

As I sit here eating frosted flakes, with no milk I might add, I am overjoyed about the new journey I am about to embark. Tomorrow I will be on a plane that will arrive in Salt Lake City, Utah. Then the next day I will be on the long journey up to Idaho to move into an apartment. Now, the best part about this new journey and this apartment is who I will be sharing it with. My darling husband. I feel so fortunate that we are going to be able to financially support ourselves and live on our own. And I hope I don't regret saying this, but I am grateful that we will have to struggle a little bit and live as poor college students do.

I am grateful for this opportunity and I am so glad I have my best friend to experience it with! Idaho, here we come!

My Favorite

these images make my heart happy.

IT ' S O F F I C I A L ! ! !

One month from today Nick and I will be moving into our very own apartment in Rexburg, Idaho! I am so beyond excited! The place is fully furnished thankfully. So we don't have to buy big furniture items right away. It is furnished with a bed, a desk, a bookshelf, a couch, and a small food area with a refrigerator, sink, microwave, and hot plate. We will be in that apartment for a little while and then move to a bigger one when we have the chance! I am so excited!

in need of a new view.

I have been so freaked out lately by how badly I want to move back to Idaho. I don't really like Idaho that much because, well, it's kind of boring. There isn't much to do (especially in Rexburg) and I get bored easily. Now granted, I didn't have Nicolas there with me, but it was still pretty boring. However, I find myself wanting to move back there so badly. I don't know if it's because I am tired of living with my parents already or I just want to be on my own or something else, but all I know is I need to get the heck out of here as soon as I can so that I don't go crazy. At least if I had a job I feel like it would make life a lot easier and useful. I just feel like I am floating. I clean the house to keep myself busy. And there is only so much you can clean before the whole thing is spick and span. I just don't want to go completely insane...

-Sydney Taylor Bruning - Part Two - Year Two -

Saturday was two years.

Time flies baby girl.

I can hardly believe it has been two years since I said goodbye to you. I can still see your bright red lips that I could see from across the room. I can still feel the hole in my chest when I saw you laying there. When I looked at you and just prayed that your eyes would open... But they didn't.

I saw a picture of you a couple weeks ago and it made me smile. I think for a split second I forgot you were gone. I saw the smile on your face and it felt like you were still here. I would give anything for that. I hope you know that I love you and I still miss you. I always will. The pain that I felt will never leave my memory. The pain is lesser now, but I still remember just how powerful it was. I still remember it.. and I always will.

Sydney, I hope you're doing okay up there. I know that you are safe and in good hands. That's what makes me happy. I know you are going to be okay and I know you are okay. I hope you are looking out for us down here. We love you syd. I hope you know that,


Red lips and a laugh to fill a room,

A beautiful smile,

A beautiful girl.

She made the day brighter

She made the night more cheerful.

She knew how to make you smile

She knew how to keep your spirits up

Then one day we lost her.

We lost her laugh

and her smile

and her spirit.

But we will always remember those red lips

we will always remember her laugh

we will always remember her smile

we will always remember Sydney Taylor Bruning.

overdue, but understood

I am M A R  R I E D!! 

It's official, I am Mrs. Dorsett! 

How crazy is that?! 

It feels like I have waited forever for this, but its going by so fast already! 

We have been married for 27 days already....? Its already almost been a full month! 

I need a minute for that to process.. 

So just as an update... 

/// we are living in my parents basement for the moment. we are currently searching for jobs. which is going okay, i guess. however, we are so grateful for my parents generosity in letting us stay here. we will probably be here until late, or mid april. when april comes around we will be moving out to rexburg, idaho. we will not be going back to school until that next fall. upon our return to idaho we will move in to an apartment and get jobs to start settling in. then after we have things under control for a couple months we will begin school again for the fall 2015 semester./// 

Here are a couple of pictures from the wedding day! They are not great quality. Reason being they are scans. My amazing photographer gave me a few prints from the day. So the real pictures will be better quality, obviously. Oh my photographer is Kelli Brewer! Her website is kellibrewer.com so you should check her out! Plus, my wedding should be posted on there soon too! But for now here are some pictures!

 

391

It has been 391 days since I kissed and met nick for the first time... So here are 391 random thoughts! :) 

1. I love nick
2. I want to live in Hawaii
3. I love playing donkey kong
4. I want my life to be like vampire diaries
5. I am grateful for my roommates this semester
6. I miss Jade
7. I miss Panera
8. I love writing
9. I want to be Mrs. Dorsett already
10. I wish I could fly
11. I love batman
12. Big T-shirts make me happy
13. I am not good at math
14. I love kids
15. I miss my mom
16. I love Virginia
17. I love the smell of tide laundry detergent
18. Fuzzy socks make me happy
19. I really don’t like some people
20. I wish my teeth weren’t sensitive
21. I am happy to be moving out of my apartment
22. Clean kitchens are my favorite
23. I wish my teeth were straight
24. I love my wedding dress
25. I stress out easily
26. I hate the feeling of grass
27. I hate dirty kitchens
28. Warm blankets can always cheer me up
29. I love Nick’s laugh
30. My favorite color is blue
31. I miss my dog
32. My dad is my hero
33. I love my older brother
34. I love my younger brother
35. I wish I had a sister
36. I am glad I don’t have a sister
37. I have a lot of inner turmoil
38. I love my hair when its straight
39. I miss my long hair
40. I love my house in Virginia
41. I hate dealing with finances
42. I like the house a little cold
43. I love hot chocolate
44. I wonder how many kids I will have
45. I wish my name was Emmalou
46. I want 3 kids
47. I love crafts
48. I wish I was an artist
49. I want to learn how to draw
50. I have a lot of anxiety
51. I think I am depressed sometimes
52. Les Miserables is my favorite musical
53. Ian Somerhalder is BAE
54. I wish I could sing better
55. Guitar is my passion
56. I cant wait to have sex
57. White boards are weird
58. I miss my best friend
59. I used to be bad
60. I love God
61. I love my Savior
62. I cant wait to be sealed to Nicolas
63. I want to be a photographer
64. I love the name Thora
65. I want a dog
66. I don’t like Rexburg
67. I miss having the 3 musketeers
68. I want to be a millionaire
69. I am lazy
70. I wish I could write a song
71. I love the rain
72. I hate the snow
73. I love the spring time
74. I hate winter
75. I love church
76. I hate singles wards
77. I love the smell of drier sheets
78. I love sweat pants
79. I hate science
80. I love astronomy
81. I am excited to leave Rexburg
82. I love Nicolas with all my heart
83. I love nicks beard
84. I wish I was 10 pounds lighter
85. I wish I had more motivation
86. I want my hair to be more red
87. I get cold really easily
88. I am kind of a brat sometimes
89. I wish my mom was here
90. I love my legs
91. I hate my tummy
92. I wish I had a belly button ring
93. I have always wanted a tattoo
94. I love writing in cursive
95. I don’t read the instructions
96. I hate packing
97. I wish I was low maintenance
98. I am scared of growing up
99. I hate shaving my legs
100. I am very self-conscious
101. I have a very guilty conscious
102. I love my heating blanket
103. Fuzzy blankets are amazing
104. I love minty face wash
105. I hate zits
106. I love conditioner
107. Loofas make life amazing
108. Bubble baths soothe the soul
109. I am scared of getting a massage
110. I love who I am right now
111. I love who I am becoming
112. I love my phone
113. I love taking pictures
114. I love my fiancé
115. I love/hate  scary movies
116. I love fluffy carpet
117. I need him in my life
118. I love being tall
119. I love high heels
120. I wish I was two inches shorter
121. I love Taylor swift
122. I want to go to a concert
123. This is taking way too long…
124. I love driving mini vans
125. I act strong, but I’m not
126. I love my guitar
127. I love taking notes
128. I want to be a mom
129. I hate birth control
130. I don’t fully understand condoms…
131. ^ I want to know what they feel like
132. I am a nightmare dressed like a day dream
133. I am kind of crazy
134. I wish I could come clean about everything
135. I love freshly painted nails
136. I hate waiting for nails to dry
137. Pink lemonade is amazing
138. I have an obsession with taco bell
139. Baja Blast is amazing
140. I hate thinking about the past
141. I wish I could forget things more easily
142. I forgive him very fast
143. I hate living with girls
144. I am so excited to be getting married
145. Weddings are crazy
146. I am excited to meet his family
147. I wish I was better at school
148. I am very awkward
149. I wish I still danced
150. I really enjoy roller skating
151. Nick and Emma vs. The World
152. Dogs are my favorite
153. I don’t like cats
154. I don’t mind kittens
155. I am allergic to bunnies
156. I am allergic to cats
157. I want to be successful
158. I love curling my hair
159. When I look pretty I feel more confident
160. I hate working at McDonalds
161. I won’t go back to McDonalds
162. I am so happy I have Nick in my life
163. I don’t regret anything with him
164. I know God loves me
165. Ed Sheeran’s voice is amazing
166. Love hurts
167. Pictures make life better
168. I wish life was more simple
169. I wish I was more flexible
170. He makes me feel alive
171. I wish I played the guitar more
172. I have only kissed four boys
173. I have only had three boyfriends
174. I dated my first boyfriend for 9 months
175. I love the holidays
176. I AM GETTING MARRIED!
177. I am lucky to have great parents
178. I am sick of the cold
179. I hope my kids will love life
180. I want to raise my kids right
181. I am happy that Nick will be their father
182. I love my wedding veil
183. I hate the dark sometimes
184. I can only sleep in complete darkness
185. I can only sleep in complete silence
186. I am going to miss the friends I made this semester
187. I wish I could rap
188. Nick is my best friend
189. Nick is the only person I am 100% honest with
190. I hate Iphones
191. I hate Apple…
192. I love death cab for cutie
193. I used to be obsessed with coheed and cambria
194. I hate death
195. I hate thinking about my future
196. I love messy buns
197. I love hair products
198. I wish my hair was longer
199. I miss the beach
200. OBX is my favorite place to relax
201. Disney is life!
202. I am going to Disney on my honeymoon
203. I have the vampire diaries necklace
204. I need more socks
205. I hope it doesn’t snow very much in VA this winter
206. I wish I knew how to finger pick on the guitar
207. I hate little red lights in the dark
208. I am almost finished packing
209. I hate the feeling of cotton pads
210. Nail polish remover gives me the chills
211. I hate dry skin
212. I love my wedding ring
213. Rode gold is my favorite
214. I love the ring I got for nick
215. I hate my toes
216. I hate getting pedicures
217. My younger brother is awesome at skateboarding
218. I love bushing my hair
219. I wish my hair was naturally straight
220. I lose so much hair every day
221. I love vacuuming carpets
222. I love the smell of lemon cleaning products roller coaster are awesome
223. I love wood floors
224. I love ice cream
225. ^ but I am lactose intolerant
226. I love frozen yogurt
227. Ice skating is awesome
228. I wish I could do ballet
229. I want to do better in school
230. I am done with school for 9 months
231. ^ that makes me really happy
232. I am jealous of Nick’s guitar skills
233. I love the Book of Mormon
234. I am a daughter of God
235. Nick and I have something beautiful between us
236. I love to sleep
237. Like I LOVE to sleep!
238. I can sleep for 10 hours a night and be perfectly content
239. I get sick if I don’t sleep
240. I am excited to meet his siblings
241. I am excited to go to California
242. I haven’t been to California besides Disney Land
243. I like the taste of envelope glue
244. I love writing in different fonts
245. I hate cleaning other peoples messes
246. Food in the sink grosses me out
247. I go to bed early for a college student
248. I can listen to the same song over and over
249. I love tan walls
250. I love decorating houses/ rooms
251. I wish I felt the spirit more often
252. I wish I got angry less
253. I want to be more patient
254. My mom is freaking amazing
255. I love Instagram
256. I love Facebook
257. I hate twitter
258. Snapchat is amazing
259. I love bonfires
260. I love the smell of clothes after you have been around a fire
261. I love the sand dunes
262. Smores are amazing!
263. Chocolate can cure any sadness
264. I am scared to have kids
265. I love super Nintendo games
266. I love roller coaster tycoon
267. I love Bioshock
268. Spotify is the best invention ever
269. I love legos
270. I hope nick likes his Christmas present(s)
271. I love hot showers
272. Music soothes my soul
273. Toilet paper has to be soft
274. I love orange juice
275. I will not buy off brand laundry detergent
276. I love mushrooms
277. I don’t like most vegetables
278. I’ve always wanted to teach
279. I am nervous to meet nicks biological dad
280. ^ I think he is nervous too
281. My mom wants to be nicks mom too
282. ^she said she is going to ‘adopt’ him
283. I want to meet Taylor Swift
284. I miss humidity
285. I miss my daddy
286. I will always be daddy’s little
287. I had caffeine tonight
288. I hate loud noises
289. I don’t like foot rubs
290. I can’t get massages because I’m too ticklish
291. I am not racist
292. Cards against humanity is hilarious
293. I love monopoly
294. I hate history
295. I want to write better
296. I wish I was a singer / songwriter
297. I have only performed once
298. I miss high school choir
299. ^I miss theatre too..
300. I love space heaters
301. We used to put a space heater in my dogs house outside
302. I am excited to go in the temple
303. I love my grandparent
304. I miss my grandparents
305. I wish I wasn’t so jealous all the time
306. I know my family loves me
307. I know I love Nick
308. I want to be a good person for him
309. I hate getting my socks wet
310. I love swimming
311. I love the ocean
312. I love hot tubs
313. I hate the smell of indoor pools
314. I want to kiss nick right now
315. I always want to kiss nick
316. This is taking forever! Haha
317. I love the feeling of clean dishes
318. I hate doing other peoples dishes
319. Sometimes doing dishes calms me down
320. Eternity with him isn’t long enough
321. I don’t want romance to go away
322.  I am afraid of getting pregnant
323. Superman is pretty cool
324. Christmas is only 9 days away!
325. I don’t know if I want to tell my kids about Santa
326. I have a sexy Santa outfit
327. I get up really early on Christmas
328. I don’t know what nick got me for Christmas
329. I am excited to go back to VA for a bit
330. I miss the spring
331. I wish my feet weren’t so big
332. I hate my feet
333. I like my hands
334. I wish my boobs were bigger
335. My butt is awesome right now 
336. I love sexy underwear
337. I am going to miss wearing thongs
338. I hate running
339. I love yoga
340. I don’t have a best friend in the apartment
341. I want him here right now
342. I love love!
343. I hate being a girl sometimes
344. I never want to shave again!
345. Everyone thinks I am part Asian
346. I am so excited for my wedding reception
347. I am excited to be getting sisters (by marriage)
348. I hate earbuds
349. ^ because my ears are too small for them
350. I wish I was stronger
351. I wish I met nick sooner
352. I stole nick from another girl
353. I love shoes!
354. I wear boots almost every day
355. I want to be truly happy
356. I hate fighting
357. I hate contention
358. I hate disagreements
359. I cry really easily
360. Sometimes I just need to cry
361. I am lucky to be marrying my best friend
362. I hate complicated things
363. I can’t to have a house of my own
364. I am tired of going to school
365. I want to love him forever
366. I don’t like birds
367. I hate not getting sleep
368. I hate super loud people
369. I am an introvert
370. I love the smell of clean towels
371. I love baking
372. I love cooking dinner
373. I love the fall leaves
374. I am more of a night owl than an early bird
375. I love our first kiss
376. I love our first conversation
377. I love our trust  
378. I love his smile
379. I love his dimple
380. I love his eyes
381. I love his hands
382. I love the way he holds me
383. I love the way he kisses me
384. I love how he loves me
385. I love his hair
386. I love his personality
387. I love his jokes
388. I love his dance moves
389. I love the way he holds my hand
390. I love his love
391. I just love him